Tuesday, May 20, 2003
♥ 6:48 PM
stupid.....i din wan to use tis word to scold him.....but he really a fucking bro....cant he jus leave me alone....at least one day......no.....he will nv.....unless he is six feet under....
we were fighting jus now....n my uncle woke up...he called my mum......guess my mum scolded my bro......dunno wat is she going to do to us....cane me or scold me.....i dun care......it's not my fault.....he started it first.....i'm jus trying to defend myself.....is tt a crime?....now besides è tv...è whole hse is so quiet....
wat's my mum gonna to do???i tink she will jus side with my bro...wat è hell loh...i'm oso her child...yet tis is wat i got...mother...does she exist in my world....or rather do i exist in HER world....she lyk to scream...for nothing...shouting at me bcos of è washing powder...wat è hell loh...she screamed at me lyk it's my fault...when i explain to her...more scolding i will get...wat è...
she scold me for not doing my part in the family...yah...she done alot for è family...everydae...i'm alone at home...my bro...either he's in skool or bball court...my mum...out everydae...my dad...for some reason...he doesnt cum home everydae...i always being accompany by my com,tv,sleep...some of u rather be at home alone...tinking tt it's fun...i dun see è fun in it...wat's è meaning for family?..being alone at home...n nobody cares...tt's my meaning for family...
being in skool is è best time of everydae...but i seem to always screw up everything between my frends...u guys nid me onli for some reasons...u r my true frend?..i dunno...u guys tink tt i'm so carefree...dun even have a stress for study...i'm...jus pls...spare a thought for my feeling...i dunno...sumhow life really seems to be meaningless to me...
i dunno....mayb i jus simply dun belong to tis world...
mayb i shd be to one to be six feet under...
i'm dying...
